Q5: For collegebabies/DLs, did this affect your college experiences? If so, how?
I remember my time in college as one of the most difficult times of my life.
I've since come to the realization that the experience was made more difficult - and, in some ways, made easier - because of my love for diapers.
I'll explain.
I've never been much of a student, and that was especially true during my early college years. I've long been critical of a system of education that promotes the teaching of obscure facts over the learning of skills pertinent to real life, so sitting through classes on philosophy and similar topics - all 'musts' for an English major - was difficult for me.
I also had shitty luck with roommates my first two years out the gate, something that would shape my college experience more than anything else possibly could.
Tim, my roommate freshman year, was a really cool guy - but he had been forced into college by his mother, an overbearing woman who'd seen her son as college material when he really might have been better off attending a trade school. She would frequently call my phone to demand that I put her son on the line so that she could make sure he was at class and not in bed. (He was always in bed, and he would never get on the phone). Tim hated everything about college, and almost never went to class. In fact, he almost never left our room. If he did leave the room, he left to go somewhere with me, just to go for the ride or go wherever I was going...
That, of course, meant my hopes of ever just padding up and having a few hours of 'little time' were basically an impossible dream.
If you're ABDL like me you know how much we need to be able to disappear into that headspace sometimes. And how not being able to do it can cause some real - angst.
I remember getting heated a few times because he'd feign an intent to go to class, and I'd be sure I was going to have a few hours to wear, wet, and dispose the well-hidden disposables I had stuffed in the closet before he got back. I'd get all excited as he took a shower, changed for class, got his books together, and etc. etc. etc. - only to decide against going and simply fall asleep again. What. The. Fuck!
"Bro... are you ever going to go to class?" I'd beg, exasperated.
Are you my mother?" he'd ask me sarcastically. "You sound an awful lot like my mother..."
So weeks would go by without an ability to wear even once.
Again, if you're anything like me, you know how much that sucks. Irritable? Fuck yes.
Finally I couldn't take it anymore. So I took to going to the mall - a vacant abyss of shuttered stores even by the mall standards of the day - and diapered myself in an empty corner of the parking lot, laying in the back seat of my Mustang, sometimes even slurping on a bottle and napping in my car. (I'll write about the time I got caught during a snowstorm in a future blog entry - lol - it's quite a read).
Eventually I got the courage to wear back to the dorm, and I found that if I diapered myself in the mall parking lot and went back to campus in said diaper I could get away with wearing all day and all night, and simply remove my diaper during my morning shower.
After such a long dry period, so to speak, that felt heavenly.
Eventually I got up the courage to put on a diaper before bed with Tim in the room. It wasn't easy - it involved pre-taping an Attends, hiding it under my covers, and quickly sliding it on when Tim went to the bathroom or outside to smoke. And then trying to mask the crinkle.
One night Tim would come back into the room unexpectedly. I'd fall asleep without ever being able to put it on, and at some point Tim would get up to find me sleeping with a disposable diaper on the floor next to my bed. Worse, he'd go into my partly-opened bottom dresser drawer to try to discretely put the diaper out of sight, only to find a few more diapers peeking out from behind whatever clothes were supposed to be covering them.
Awkward next day when I realized the diaper I'd thought was under my covers was actually put away? Yes.
That may be why Tim suggested that we request new roommates for the next year - but to ask for rooms next door to each other.
Truthfully I was only too happy to oblige - maybe I'd get someone who actually went to an occasional class and whose mother didn't call hourly demanding to speak with him. (Tim was probably hoping he'd just get someone who was toilet trained... lol).
The next semester Tim would gave a hunky hockey player named Chad, a guy who found Tim's refusal to ever leave the room as infuriating as I had. Chad and I would become friends, and the three of us would often go out together.
I, in turn, would get a new roommate named Matt - a guy who suffered from mental illness and sometimes was certain he was actually the lead singer of Pearl Jam. Not kidding. This was a guy I would have traded for Tim and his mom in a heartbeat. A guy who managed to creep out me, our RA, and every other person who lived on our floor.
Anyway, that was it for me and diapers for a while. I'll write the entire story of Matthew Colon and our horrible, very bad, no good semester in a future blog entry - it involves the entire hockey team banding together to save me from a crazed lunatic, and stars Scotty, this adorable hockey player with a huge heart who sacrificed a lot to become my roommate just so I could move away from Matt.
If you've spent the night with me in Orlando or on my boat, I've probably told you the story. People seem to really enjoy it.
If so, you know that it ends with Scotty coming back to our dorm room unexpectedly, worried about me, only to find me sleeping in a diaper. And actually picking my blanket up off the floor and tucking me in, and then doing his best to make me not feel embarrassed the next day.
That would be my last semester at that school - and my last semester ever with a roommate.
After Matt Colon, you'd give up on roommates too.
When I think back to how depressed I was those first three semesters - and, especially, the last one - I realize how much of a stress-reliever being able to put on a diaper and feel little for a bit really was.
Even if it was just in my car in a mall parking lot, or under my covers (mostly lol) overnight in the dorm.
Some of my fellow students turned to alcohol or drugs. Others dropped out of school. I, on the other hand, would manage to make it through three semesters with some pretty unfortunate circumstances.
Looking back on it, regression was probably what provided me with the mental break from that shit that I needed to get by.
Today's college students are lucky: they have the internet, and a whole online community, and can figure out ways to get away from campus - I myself have provided more than a few college students with that overnight littles retreat space. Homework in Huggies? Why not.
Still, college isn't an ideal environment for ABDLs - especially those of us who need to regress on occasion just to feel sane. That's why I asked this question. I thank everyone who took the time to answer...
- CWIS
ABenjaminButton
21, New York USA & Italy | March 14, 2018
When I was eighteen I opted out of going to a more career specific state school in Florida for a small liberal arts college in NYC. This decision was so important for growing and exploring as an AB/DL because living in one of the biggest cities in the US afforded me the option of meeting so many people. I never really had a problem managing my work and being AB/DL just like I didn’t have a problem balancing other hobbies or relationships. This goes back to the binge/purge question where, because I took everything in small baby-steps, (baddum-tsh) I never felt like I was putting too much attention into my AB/DL exploration that it was negatively affecting my school.
Little Skywalker
23 San Francisco CA USA | April 2, 2018
Eh…you can say it did. When I had my own dorm/room was when I was finally free to wear…um..freely. It never affected my love life, but my roommates did find out. One of my buddies was using my bathroom, and he came out and loudly announced “WHY ARE THERE DIAPERS IN YOUR TRASH?” And I was mortified, I just explained that they were for some wetting issues which got a follow up “ARE YOU WEARING ONE NOW?!.”
After that conversation, it wasn’t brought up again, but everyone knew. So I was comfortable with wearing around them from that point on.
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DiaperBoyAres
24, The Netherlands | January 11, 2018
Not really I think. I can spend a lot of time daydreaming about diapers and such, but if I wasn’t an ABDL I would probably just be daydreaming about other things. I’m could be doing better at college, but that’s just because of my personality/motivation. Saying that being an ABDL has had any negative effect on that, would sound like searching for excuses to me. [READ MORE]
KineseCD
20, Amsterdam, The Netherlands | April 15, 2017
I am currently a student which means that I can use public transport for free during the workweeks and have a discount during the weekends. It also means I go to Amsterdam nearly every day. This has lead me to start visiting general munches at first and dedicated ABDL munches and parties later. Now, I travel all across the country (even outside of it sometimes) for all kinds of ABDL parties more than once every two weeks. Regarding the more focussed "college experience", though, it hasn't done much for me there. I don't really enjoy my bachelor program too much and am not really that close with that many fellow students. It doesn't help that I don't actually live in the city of my university, though. But, to summarize, no real direct effect on my college experience so far. [READ MORE]
Baby Gus
25, New York, USA | May 20, 2012
When I was in college is when I started up the Clips4Sale site. My later years in college when I was an RA and had my own room I had more freedom to wear and to make videos. After I finished classwork I'd get to surfing the net for ab/dl stuff and making videos to have a little extra spending money through college. After college having a small check to pay a couple bills was helpful so I kept the site up and running after finishing school. [READ MORE]
Brad
26, Jonesborough, Tennessee USA | September 9, 2017
Yeah it did for sure. I wore to class when I got the urge and when I could. I also got really into to craigslist personal space looking for others like me to hang out with. It got me into alot of situations I probably shouldn't have gotten myself into. Turns out most people don't care if you're diapered or not they are after one thing and that's usually under your diaper. I did meet some DLs and have some of them still has friends; however, we don't see each other much these days. [READ MORE]
Champ
29 Monterey, CA USA | April 3, 2015
Oh yes, or I should say, it was an important and memorable part of my college experience. For me independence and diapers came hand in hand, and I had some of my best diaper times in college getting to try out different diapers and baby accessories for the first time! You can get packages delivered straight to the dorms and pick them up whenever you want. If you really want to, you can always find a place to stash your diapers. Anything is possible for the determined diaper wearer! [READ MORE]
KinkyDude93
23 Miami, FL USA | November 9, 2016
Being an ABDL really affects my focus on school. I’d much rather pamp up and get comfy than study. On multiple occasions I put diapers before school, but I’m still doing all right. [READ MORE]
Denoteboom13
25 Indianapolis, IN USA | October 26, 2018
I never kept diapers around freshman year. I didn't feel comfortable trying to hide them from my roommate and floor. I brought some ATNs to campus at the very end of sophomore year but never had the time to wear them. The summer before junior year I moved off campus and worked at the college, so I had the house to myself and went crazy. I had a case of M3 and SDK 1.0 and wore at least one diaper (often doubling) to work every day that summer. I was diapered often during the year as well and once had a roommate barge in on me during a party while I was changing. Fortunately for me he was too drunk to remember. Senior year was spent in Bellissimos, diapered every day and doubled on Wednesdays. I went through a handle of bourbon every week to deal with how terrible that year was and the diapers helped a lot! I found one local in town who was ABDL but never found a larger community or did anything with anyone else while at college. [READ MORE]
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DiaperWhiz
28 Brooklyn NY USA | April 19, 2012
Oh hell yeah. There are so many stories here hahaha!
My sophomore year of college our ultimate Frisbee team was getting ready for a tournament. All of our tournaments are costume themed. To give you some context there are about 14 guys on the team, all with varying levels of hotness, but everyone is in really good shape because of all the running and jumping. So anyway, some people on the team were throwing out ideas and someone joked that we should just wear diapers. I loved that the idea didnt come from me, so I was able to add my voice without seeming too pushy. People laughed and somehow it was decided, so you better believe that I got myself in charge of getting the diapers. I busted out a case of bambino biancos, and on the day of the tournament we put them on. It was really funny because some guys wore their boxers underneath, and you could tell that the idea of wearing just a diaper without some cloth between them was too much, but some other guys were totally into it! They got buck ass naked and threw on the bambinos between their legs. Laughing and wearing short thirst we all looked like little kids gone frisbee crazy!
During the games, we ran around and jumped in our diapers for all to see. and it was a great day. At night we always throw a party, and some of the guys continued to wear their diapers from the field into the party. It was hilarious. One of my good friends had a beer poured right in his diaper and walked around with very wet diaper for the majority of the party. It was so hot! haha, when I woke up the next morning, my diaper was obviously soaked, but it was cool to be able to walk in to see my roommate without being self conscious about my wet diaper, because he was all cuddled up still in bed in HIS DIAPER! lol!
For halloween my freshman and senior years I went as a dead baby. I would wear my footed sleeper and my pacifier and some zombie make up, but then a huge diaper. I think I worried a double stuffed Cushies. I had to waddle around the party and everyone thought my costume was amazing. People kept asking me where I got such colorful printed diapers, and I told them the halloween store which some of them didn't look like they believed. In any case they never knew how wet I was underneath! I was the best college baby partier ever!
Right before my graduation they had a party for all the seniors. I met this guy who was kind of an acquaintance, and we hit it off. He was a cute little soccer player, with a devilish face and a tight body. We had seen each other around but never really hung out. I was just about to graduate so clearly i was wasted, and im my drunken stupor I divulged my diaper secret to him. Instead of being creeped out he was intrigued and asked if he could see my collection. I said sure. I pulled out an arena to show him and all I heard him mutter was "jesus". Then he turned to me and said, "well, aren't you gonna put one on me?" I was shocked! I never thought that we would ask for me to diaper him. I was so surprised that I was shaking and I laid him down and slipped the diaper on his body. I made sure to give him plenty of powder. Then all diapered up he just laughed and pulled up his underwear over his thick diaper and pulled up his jeans too. He struggled to get his pants back on over the padding and it was funny as hell to see him try to walk around. He kept saying "its so bulky!" to which I replied "thats the way I like it". After he was all padded up he said "your turn". He tossed me on the bed and padded me up good. Then we headed out to a party down the street, thickly padded the two of us.
I loved watching this little soccer player waddle down the street to a party. I could see the top of his diaper peeking out of his jeans and it was so adorable and HOT! When we got to the party he started downing beers. We started playing cards with some friends at the table. He kept leaning over the to make jokes and play hands and you could totally see his diaper peaking out from behind his pants! I am sure others at the party saw it, but no one said a word, and I was content to see the little soccer baby make a fool out of himself. On the way back he struggled to walk down the street, like only someone who has never worn an adult diaper before in public could. When we got back to my place I realized the reason for his exaggerated waddle. He must of had too much to drink at the party cause he soaked that diaper! I can still remember taking him back to my room and sliding of his pants as he stood their sheepishly looking at his full diaper in the mirror. He just laughed and said, its a good thing you brought protection! HA! [READ MORE]
DprSteve92
23 Myrtle Beach, SC USA | January 9, 2016
It did, in a very good way! When I first got into college I didn’t wear too much at the time - and let’s just say I wasn’t a stranger to partying. So, unfortunately, I dropped out and went through some personal stuff. After I met my big bro (partner) three years ago I pretty much started wearing full time other than going home to see family or other stuff of that nature. When I started in school again my padding always made me a lot more secure with myself, and actually helped me focus more. I made the deans list this past semester. [READ MORE]
Dan aka Growing-boysXL
22 Leesburg, Virginia USA | May 28, 2017
I’ve had interesting experiences, as I attend one of the largest christian universities in the world. (parents pay for school, and my brother goes there) It’s a great school… but I definitely feel pretty weird being gay and ABDL there. The funny thing is though, I’ve managed to find other kinky gay folks on campus. In fact, one of the guys from my choir actually is ABDL, and we’re rooming together next year. I’ve spanked boys in back seats of cars, diapered boys up in tuxes before concerts, all the fun stuff. It’s just an interesting experience living on the DL (pun intended) where I am. [READ MORE]
Inky Wonky
58 Salem Oregon USA | May 4, 2012
Well there were occasions where I skipped class spending time in my room trying to participate in wearing what I enjoyed. My grades in undergraduate school reflected how poorly I managed it. It was during this time I went through a couple of binge/purge cycle which also effected my performance and since I was a loner didn't have many good relationships with others for quite a while. [READ MORE]
Jess
24 Toronto Ontario Canada | October 25, 2012
I found college/university and grad school to be both limiting and liberating in terms of diaper play. On the one hand, having roommates and living in dorms made it much harder to buy diapers, feel comfortable having them shipped and feel comfortable wearing with roommates right outside my door. On the other hand, summers and breaks between semesters allowed me to hang out with different kinds of people involved in the ‘community’. I mean, when am I going to ever have three months of the year to just travel and hang out all the time? University. Additionally, the classes I took involving queer theory and sexuality studies allowed me to explore myself and tell myself that wearing diapers was okay. I didn’t need approval from mainstream society. Mainstream society it would seem makes caricatures of abies. So yes, my diaper fetish did affect my college experiences, but mostly in a positive way. [READ MORE]
ThatLittleJoel
19 Wisconsin, USA | September 12, 2020
It does not affect me significantly. Packing and moving is a pain because, “Well, hello, why is there a diaper in your clothes?” is something I do not want to go through. You gotta find ways to diaper up discreetly and throw them away. But, if anything, being at college has given me more freedom. I do not have to think about the print of my onesies, because nobody will question a dino onesie, it may just be my brand or a fun shirt I found at goodwill. I do not have to worry about the crinkle of the diaper because nobody pays attention to that. Nobody knows me, and they do not know I am trying to hide something from them.
Kita Sparkles
June 5, 2018
One year, I dressed as a big baby for a Halloween party. Had a diaper (yes, a real one), bib, bonnet, and used a baby bottle all night. One particular picture featured me sitting on the floor, legs splayed, with three girls around me pinching my cheeks and babying me. I acted like that picture embarrassed me, but secretly I was absolutely thrilled.
Another year I dressed as a little girl. Tights, diapers under, jumper, cheerleader "saddle" shoes, longish hair in pigtails ... I even painted my nails pink. Several stories from that.
1. I was telling my friend how little the outfit had cost, because he wondered why I would spend so much on something I would "only wear once". Of course, I would wear it a lot more than once, but I wouldn't let him know that! Anyway, I hadn't spent that much. As I pointed out the different parts to it, he motioned to my chest and said, "And something up there..." I looked down at my chest, looked at him, looked at my chest again, looked back at him, blushed and said, "Ummm .... no. No, that's all me....."
2. One of the girls caught me. She asked me questions ... Where did you get the dress got the dress? Oh, Walmart; did you try it on in the store? No ... oh.... how'd you know what size to get then...!? I dropped the ball on that one, sputtered out something about size charts, and blushed. She gave me that look - the one that says, "I know something you don't want everybody else to find out!"
3. When I was getting dressed for the party, I called to my roommate and asked him something I promised he would never have to hear me ask again. "Will you zip me up?" So he's standing there in a cowboy costume (he did look handsome!), stretching his arms out so he didn't have to stand too close, zipping up my dress and saying, "Oh man ... this is bad. This is bad." I never did find out what was bad?? I drove to the party, and when I got there I was afraid to get out of the car. I would gather my courage, open the car door, and then hear a car coming down the road and slam the door and stare straight ahead while they passed!!! I did this 4 times, and finally just bit the bullet and got out. Halfway up the hill I heard a car horn and wolf-whistles! Frat boys ... oh well, at least I was convincing.
4. The next day, I had to ask one of the girls how to get my nails to stop being pink and sparkly! Then, I left the nail polish on the table. For months. And forgot about it. One day, I saw it sitting there and told my roommate, "Oh hey, I better put this away before someone gets the wrong idea." "Oh yeah - I meant to tell you about that. While you were gone over Christmas Break I brought (his new girlfriend) over here. She was sitting at the table and I was at the sink when suddenly she said, 'Um ... is this yours??' I knew immediately what she meant, and I just said, 'No. It's my roommate's.'" Now, I thought he went on to explain it to her, but later when I met her for the first time, I found out he never explained!! She kept giving me odd looks, and when I finally brought it up, she says, "Oh yeah ..............it ........ it was a pretty color!"
5. The next year (or maybe 2 years later), I dressed as a cheerleader. Got my butt slapped (hard! Ouch!) and told I was fair game now. Caught another boy staring at my legs and had to tell him, "Hey! My eyes are up here!" I know. I'm a shameless flirt! [READ MORE]
Kyleman93/DiaperedRebel
26 Saint Louis MO USA | February 1, 2019
I recently started college and I have worn to every class and it hasn't affected me at all. [READ MORE]
Chuck aka LittleBoyC
23 Kansas | December 13, 2014
While I was in college I didn't wear hardly at all. It was really hard and kinda made me a bit depressed that I couldn't bring my little out in me. I just put it on the back burner. And while on school vacations at home I did manage to get to wear so it did help. [READ MORE]
Littleguyau
35 Melbourne, Victoria Australia | November 4, 2018
When I was at university, I was only wearing irregularly, so it never was an issue. [READ MORE]
Little Joshy
20 Suburban Philadelphia, PA USA | January 5, 2016
I've purged a few times before. Each time I threw out all of my stash. I haven't had one in several years now that I've gotten more comfortable with this side of me and me not wanting to throw them away now that i have to use money i earned myself to purchase them. Now if i get a period of not wanting to wear I just leave them in my hiding spot. [READ MORE]
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Mez
26 Anaheim CA USA | January 12, 2016
Freshman year, it was all about privacy whenever I diapered up and I never let anyone into my room. A friend of mine in the dorm actually told me years later that a couple freshman saw some diaper bags underneath my bed and didn’t think much of it. So I was a tad shy, though I had a ton of plushies to cuddle when I done studying for exams.
Soph year, I wore a lot more but had to carefully plan when my roommate would bust thru the door. It was because of diapers that I met one of the AB’s on campus and we hung out. We changed each other and I played with him. I came out more often because of my friend and we wore out to more places
Junior and Senior year was all about going out to events in LA and Long Beach and spending the weekends with DLs in the area. But I also became more curious of how the mind functions and slowly became more interested in behavior studies and how people develop. All the while, I’m became more accepting of my ABDL side and even more daring about where to take photos while my diapee was showing. I even took off my pants with a friend and did a walk around the University Park at night. [READ MORE]
Min
33 Colorado Springs CO USA | November 15, 2016
During college I lived at home, at the time I was too scared to wear outside of my house, college was pretty normal for me. [READ MORE]
Oliver
26 Rochester NY USA | July 8, 2018
My partner at the end of high school and half of college was also in the community. He convinced me that I should lie to my freshman roommate and tell him I was a bedwetter so I could wear on the regular. In hindsight, not a great idea. It made for a lot of uncomfortable moments during an already socially challenging first year of university. After my freshman year, I dropped the act and just wore recreationally as much as I could. Had a few fun times with kids on campus over the years. [READ MORE]
OneFitStoner420
28 Providence RI USA | June 10, 2018
When I was in college I wasn't able to wear as frequently as I wanted to but whenever my roommate wasn't around I would make sure I was diapered. [READ MORE]
Padded-DJ
27 New Orleans LA USA | June 3, 2018
I wouldn’t say it had much of an affect on me when I was in college. I was not looking to date or anything at the time anyway so I would just wear whenever I could. [READ MORE]
PupKeno
25 New York, NY USA | August 2, 2018
For me, I was lucky to be five in when I was 19, and I could talk to so many guys. With out me being an ABDL and talking to fellow community members, I wouldn’t have visited cities like Seattle and Baltimore. For those diaper guys, I’m fortunate to have been given great people to show me those cities and get me exploring the US. [READ MORE]
Ronikat
18 San Diego, CA USA | August 18, 2012
Well I didn't go to college, but I did join the Marines. It really didn't affect me, I got through bootcamp and the rest of my training with a few bedwettings but I still made it through. And now that I'm done with training and everything I'm back in diapers. I still almost wear 24/7 to work and everything. It can be a bit scary at times, seeing how if anyone find out I could get into trouble with the military, but I kinda enjoy that sense or feeling, just knowing you might get caught, or might get into trouble…idk it just kinda excites me hehe. [READ MORE]
Scott Jobs
19 Baja California Mexico | March 10, 2017
One or two years ago a member of my school, a girl of the high school, find my open Instagram full of pics of me in diapers and well… she showed them to all my school. Haha - but don't worry, it didn't turn out that bad, some friends actually accepted it. A few just don’t wanna know nothing about that. [READ MORE]
TeddyNhislittle
22 Chicago IL USA | February 9, 2019
Being in college and being and AB/DL can be hard to find that balance. I almost ranked my first semester because I couldn't find a balance and always stressing out because I could find time to be little and wear. thankfully I was able to find a good balance. I'll wear a lot to classes/ lectures and brings spare or two helps me destress and relax in college so I don't overload myself with my workload. I'll wear the Abu hats to class as well in the hopes some in the community knows what it is. [READ MORE]
ToddlerBoiCharlie
19 Charlotte, NC USA | October 31, 2012
Well as of this fall (fall of 2012) I have started my freshman year of college. Diapers have really gotten pushed on the back burner for me because its really difficult to hide them in a tiny room that you share with someone else. However, I also have a lot more freedom to explore my diaper side at the same time without having to worry about my family finding out about it again. So, I would say that so far my college experience as of recently has really helped me grow in my adult baby interests because I am starting to see that everyone has their thing and that this is just mine! [READ MORE]
Welshdiaper
24 Wales UK | May 8, 2015
When I was in university, it affected me a great deal. Having moved away from home, I finally had the freedom to explore this side of me better. I got my first tape up diapers at university, could wear as often as I liked, and managed to explore my baby side a lot better than if I was still at home. [READ MORE]
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Zac
21 New Jersey USA | April 30, 2012
Haha also like above hasn't really affected it lol. I've been wearing diaper sense I have been in college. I have gone to class, parties, school activities all padded. The only thing I have to do is keep some changes in my book bag, with powder, wipes, and other diaper supplies. Changing in bathroom stalls at school kind of sucks though lol. [READ MORE]
