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Q2: What steps did you take to get your diaper 'fix' as a child or a teen?

If you've been reading my blog for a while, you already know about 'hooky days'.

Those were the days that I used to take off from school to be little. I'd fake being sick, and then, when my parents and brother were long gone, my day of littleness would begin.

Early on I was still able to find - and fit into - our cloth diaper stash. It was a sad day indeed when a diaper pin sprang open and stabbed me in the thigh - it hurt like a motherfucker, but it also meant the end of squeezing my growing li'l ass into the Birdseye brand.

I can't remember how long it took me experimenting with towels and other inferior non-substitutes - nothing quite felt like a cloth diaper, really. But at some point I started to look toward disposable diapers. I think I was probably around the sixth or seventh grade.

Of course, this was in the days before the internet - you couldn't just swipe a parent's credit card and place an order. And getting to the store to buy diapers was out of the question, too: for one, they wouldn't fit - if adult incontinence products existed then, I certainly hadn't stumbled onto them.

So I did the next best thing: I began manufacturing my own out of materials we had around the house. Garbage bags? Check. Paper towels? Check. Toilet paper? Check. Duct tape? Check.

Over a period of years I perfected the art of garbage bag diapers. Seriously, these things were amazing - I think they rivaled the later-discovered Depends for absorbency. Fit, maybe not so much. But I learned what worked, and what didn't. For example, toilet paper is a lot of effort for very little reward - it's not nearly as absorbent as you think, and you have to use a lot to get even distribution in your diaper. I eventually just layered paper towels, even developing an overlapping pattern - it's a trade secret, don't ask hehe.

If my parents were suspicious about my asking them to buy certain brands of paper towels and garbage bags, they never said anything. I'd found a brand of paper towels that might not be the most absorbent, but felt the most diaper-like as it caressed your skin. And I found white garbage bags that were a bit smaller for a tighter fit - and the white just seemed more baby-like.

For many years 'hooky days' were spent crawling around the house and yard with a paper towel-filled, duct tape garbage bag diaper taped to my ass. And I loved every minute of it. Today, I still open a box of garbage bags and catch the signature smell that to most of the rest of the world says 'trash' but, to me, says 'diapers'.

When I was 15 I discovered Attends adult diapers, and my life would never be the same: I'd never make another garbage bag diaper again. But even today, thinking back to the mental euphoria I felt from some common household items just about anyone else would overlook - you can't tell me that this love for diapers and feeling little isn't innate. Nobody taught me to pair trash bags with paper towels and duct tape to make a diaper - it was this instinctive drive that I had to do that.

PS: I still take 'hooky days' - as do, I suspect, most of us. Only these days the diapers are premium - and require a lot less effort.

- Cwis

ABenjaminButton

24 New York USA & Italy | March 14, 2018

It wasn’t too long after the initial getting caught that I began to start simulating my own diapers, mostly by using toilet paper folded up inside of underwear or making these crazy bulky cloth diapers by folding up a bed sized fleece blanket of mine into this roman toga style deal. There was a brief period of “borrowing” large size toddler diapers that the church I grew up in kept in its nursery. (Forever repenting of my sins for that one) Other than that there was no real opportunity for me to get my diaper ‘fix’. For years I would have what I think are the classic AB/DL dream of going to a big store discovering a huge diaper section that sold the equivalent of what’s on the AB/DL market today, somehow managing to buy them, and then waking up juuuuuust before getting to try them on. That recurring torment all changed however when I turned sixteen. If you’re not from the states you may not know that at sixteen (at least in the State of Florida) you are permitted to drive alone if you’ve completed all of your tests by your birthday. Not too long after getting my license I was making frequent hour long trips between where I lived and my cello lessons in the next city over. Where I grew up in Central Florida it is super rural, with seemingly endless straight stretches of highway through farms that surround the towns. There was this rogue CVS pharmacy right in the middle of said commute and after my late night lessons and orchestra meetings I would always pass by imagining how it wouldn’t be too difficult to just go right in and buy diapers. I always paid very careful attention to how many cars there were in the parking lot as I drove by. More than one car and that meant there was probably someone else inside shopping. Over time I promised to myself that the night I drive by and there is only one car I’m just going to suck up my fear and go in. So one very late night driving back from a prom my plan finally came together. The single car in the parking lot at 2:00am indicated I would finally be able to finally fulfill my diaper wearing obsession. I pulled in to a parking spot, looked into the window from my car spotting a very non-judgmental older lady running the register. It was now or never. With cash in hand, I walked very directly into the store, feeling shaky and sweaty all over, on the outside probably looking like I was going to rob the store. Went straight to the diaper isle in the back where there were Depends lined up right next to the Goodnites. With my AB side cheering me on I chose the Goodnites, and to the register I went, placing my big kid pull-ups on the counter, and shakily handing the lady at the register my cash. Fast-forward to the most exhilarating hour drive home, lucky I didn’t have an accident as many times as I looked at the package of Goodnites sitting in the passenger seat. The first thing I thought when I got to my bedroom and opened up the package was “these diapers are huge,” as I had up to this point gotten used to the barely fitting large size pull-ups I had stolen from my church nursery. Going to the pharmacy in the middle of nowhere to buy Goodnites and eventually the old plastic-backed four-tape Depends (RIP) never became easy, but after several trips over the next few years I began to relax just a little bit.

Babysidekick

23 New Hampshire USA | April 4, 2018

I remember wanting to wear diapers as far back as 5 years old… my step brother still wore them and he got all the attention and never got in trouble for not making it to the potty.. I remember seeing this as a unfair betrayal by my father and stepmother. By the time i was 9, I was really close to one of my cousins, who had younger brothers who wore goodnites to bed. I remember trying to find toilet paper for the bathroom during a sleepover there, and stumbling upon the big box of goodnites. Once my eyes made contact with the package I couldn't control myself… I tore my clothes off put one on and then quickly got redressed in my sleep pants and shirt. These weren't diapers per say but they were close enough and for that moment I felt so good. I dare not pee in it though as i was sleeping in my cousins room that night. I was not as skilled in the arts of stealth as i am now however as i had somehow managed to tuck the back of my shirt into the goodnight! My cousin saw and asked “why are you wearing a diaper?!” i remember asking him back “why aren't you?” and then promptly rolling over on my side and going to sleep. He never brought it up or anything but i felt like i had won some small unmentioned battle. Other than that, I went a very, very, long time without diapers….. due to moving around my access to them was zero and I never had privacy growing up. But something would always make me squirm inside when I saw or heard a diaper commercial, the smell of the baby isle in the stores.

The next time I wore a diaper I was 14 and just coming to grips with also being homosexual.. I talked to one of my older friends about them... and after explaining what little I knew at the time about why I wanted them, he brought me up to the dollar store. I bought some pack of cheap not so cool looking diaper... then I remember how nervous I was bringing them to the counter…. The sweat and the shaking limbs and how it made me feel all over inside and out was overwhelming my tiny little neck hairs raised... I snuck them home and wore them to bed, although I still never wet them..  I think this was when i got them confused with being a sexual item. By that time puberty had hit hard and everything gives you a boner when you are 14. 

DiaperBoyAres

24, The Netherlands | January 11, 2018

I already told you about the cuddle cloth thingy and homemade diapers. But I could get a lot of satisfaction from just watching diaper videos/porn. I had this p2p-program named ‘Ares’ (jup, that was one of the inspirations for my nickname) and download a lot of diaper videos with it. Mostly straight content, but I didn’t really care (did I already mention I prefer guys?) as long as I saw grownups in diapers, I was a happy man.

Furthermore there is this very large Dutch ABDL-forum with a lot of ABDL stories written in Dutch. I’ve read them all!

For a very long time I said to myself I wouldn’t buy diapers before I did have my own house. However when I was 18 years old, my parents and sister would go on vacation for 2 weeks while I would stay at home. So this was a great opportunity! I ordered some diapers at a web shop and really enjoyed these 2 weeks of being home alone and wearing diapers. My first ever diaper was an ABU Cushie! Yup, I started with adult diapers. It took me about 2 more years to have enough courage to buy regular baby diapers and drynites at the drug store. 

KineseCD

20, Amsterdam, The Netherlands | April 15, 2017 

The first something was probably that costume I just mentioned. Later during primary school I put a lot of thought into constructing a diaper with a couple of impenetrable-looking paper towels that we had in the bathrooms at school. When I finally built up the courage to take any steps in that plan (feel really bad about myself in the process) I tested my theory and found out the paper towels fell apart when they actually got wet, stopping that plan from going any further. At some point later, I think between 11 and 13, the curiosity had returned to such an extent that I constructed a diaper from a plastic bag, paper, toilet paper, paper towls, painter's tape and glue (it was an impressive creation, looking back at it). I knew very well that this would not a single wetting without immense leaking, oh no, this diaper was meant for a much smellier experiment - that was the extent of the curiosity. When I was home alone I carried out my preparations and with a racing heart and trembling knees I messed my makeshift diaper in the shower booth. I stuck to the full plan I had had for months so after I was done I sat down on the floor in the booth with the diaper still on. At that point, I had completed the plan so, with much of the stress falling off my shoulders, I heard myself whisper, enthusiastically and without thinking: "I did it, I'm sitting in my own shit." Realizing what I had just said moments later marked the beginning of a period of repressing my feelings as I had not enjoyed the experience at all and felt like an absolute freak for what I had done. When the scar had faded and the feelings came back I signed up to an ABDL forum and got fairly active on the website. To this day, when I meet ABDLs in real life, some of them will still remember my username from how present I was back then. Writing stories and chatting with a few people my age kept me coping for a while, but then, about a month before my 15th birthday, someone I didn't know sent me a PM that he had gotten a pack of Tena adult diapers in the wrong size and he asked if I wanted to have them. Getting the package into my house stealthily involved telling one of my closest friends at the time, marking the first time I ever told somebody about these feelings in real life. This time around, though, my experiences where much more positive. My friend picked it up really well and I got completely addicted to the diapers I had been given, burning through 3-4 every week. To say I accepted my feelings at this point would not be true at all, but at the very least my interest was having a positive impact on my life apart from the insecurity and mild self-loathing. It would take quite a while for that to start going away, and definitely not quietly.

ATwinkyToddler

21, Pacific Northwest USA | March 4, 2017

Being the devious boy I was, I of course stole cousins / brothers diapers whenever I could. When I would go to daycare for grade school I'd steal diapers, and even put multiple on so I could have some for later at home. I thankfully never got caught there. After all I was just an innocent 8 year old. At 12-14, I'd bike to Walgreens to go buy the newly released Pampers size 7. Looking back, the cashier probably thought it was a bit weird that someone my age would be buying diapers so early in the morning. I had my fake shopping list and loads of excuses ready to go. I would buy 3 packs, as much as my backpack could hold, and store them in my attic. Fun times, and I can still squeeze Pampers on to this day.

ABToddler

San Diego, CA USA | March 11, 2019 

When I was super little about 5 or so, I was over to my friends house and they wanted me to play the baby for playing house, then they wanted to continue this so over the year, from about 6 -7 I had been given a diaper from the girls little sister and told to go put it on. Those little bitches said I stole it. And that started off the development of my love of diapers. 

I used to wet my bed and my pants quite a lot, so I would layer all the pairs of underwear I could, or take old towels, and then wash them in the morning in the shower with me, when I was going to middle school and had a locker, I hid them in there, and figured out ways around being able to steal them from the store, or buy them with money I earned mowing lawns. I would change into it after gym class, and then out by the end of the day. It was nice when I was with a couple friends I had who also engaged in my diapering of myself and occasionally them. They didn’t love the diapers, and it was more a novelty to them that was fading. It was really hard trying to get it so that I could wear safely and privately. Only in high school did it start to even out, when I would by the depends at the time were white, and didn’t actually suck that bad. I would take my night diaper and toss it in the trash on the way to school, nights I didn’t wet the bed I wore right through gym class with nothing over it but the gym shorts. Changed into another one around lunch time, and wore going home.

Also I read tons of stories, and tried to make my own diapers out of old shirts, or with a towel tucked into a brief, or a speedo. Etc. and growing up, every 6 months or so when I was a kid when my mom and dad allowed me to have a pack or two of diapers. They didn’t like that I was so happy to have them, because of the reasons they made me feel good, safe, and comfy, so that to my mother was a sin of the worst kind. So however I could, I did.

William, aka ALittleRobotKid

New Jersey, USA | January 6, 2015 

Well I'm not proud of the several thefts I committed from family members. I was actually caught most of the time by my sister. Surprisingly enough not much was said about this until I got a bit older. 10 ish.

Once I was able to start mowing and raking yards for money I started saving up and buying my ow

James aka APaddedGuyJ

24, Wiltshire, United Kingdom | February 19, 2018 

When I first rediscovered nappies my parents used to child mind a lot so we often had open packs off nappies in the house. I can remember being curious and trying them when I was around 9 or 10.. I continued to sneak the odd one or two when I could until I out grew the sizes we had in the house.. Then there was a gap of a couple of years where I didn’t have any access until around 14yrs when I started a paper round and used to buy them from the shop I delivered for (I used to lie and say they were for a younger sibling and that I was just running an errand for my parents). It got a lot easier as I got older as I soon discovered the world of online shopping and was soon buying them online, mostly through sites like Amazon. I can remember the first time I ordered ABDL nappies, I only ordered a pack of two from Cuddlz, I think I was 17 at the time, and I was really nervous about them being delivered and my parents seeing it and asking questions.. As it happens I missed the delivered and had to pick it up from the local sorting office but it was still nerve racking

Baby L

Midwest USA | May 1, 2012 

I was lucky enough to live down the street from a little market that carried Goodnites. Which was amazing, considering the time - because they weren't as available as they are now.  No patterns or colors, just plain white Goodnites and thick! I remember going in the store for weeks plotting it out as if I was carrying out a bank robbery.  After I bought the first package, I thought I'd shake to death on the walk home - never had something ever made me soooo excited. I continued to buy them infrequently. I also ordered samples from various sites, hoping they would hit the mail on weekdays so my parents wouldn't snatch them up. [READ MORE] 

Baby Mickey

25, Oregon USA | May 23, 2012 

Sadly I didn't grow up with any younger siblings or even cousins that I could steal diapers from once I realized what was going on. I started buying Goodnites as often as I could. I was so nervous the first time I went in to buy them. I drove down to the local Wallgreens in my mom's car and I was shacking so bad. I was so worried that someone would see me that I knew or that they would ask questions at the register or even think they were for me. I must have spent 30 minutes going up and down the isle eyeing them as I would pass. I finally got up the courage to grab a package and go to the register. I checked out quickly and threw them in the trunk. My mom almost never used her car so I left them in the trunk until my parents went to bed and went out to the car saying I left a school book in the car. I became even more adventurous as time went on and even bought a package of Depends in front of my best friend who still doesn't even know I wear. I told her I was buying them as a gag gift for my step-dad. [READ MORE] 

Caleb

22 Colorado Springs, CO USA | February 11, 2019

As a kid, my family used to spend Sunday afternoon’s at our church. I would always sneak into the nursery and look at the diapers and even try them on. As I got a little older, and we left that church, I didn’t “Indulge” myself for a while. I was about 13 when I got sneaky enough to take one from the nursery during a youth group night and brought it home for the first time. It was also the first time that I got to use the diaper as well, even though it was a little small for me. [READ MORE

Caliboy557

31 Los Angeles, CA, USA | September 25, 2018 

Well, initially, when my neighbor’s sister stopped wearing diapers I didn’t really have a “Source”.  So there was probably a 2-3 year lapse between when I initially wore a few times and really started getting into it.  My younger brother wet the bed, so once Goodnites came out and he started getting them I would wear his (Sometimes with him as a sort of “Solidarity” thing). Eventually as he got older and more social, the idea of wearing diapers didn’t really appeal to him, so he preferred to just not wear them, and risk having accidents.  After this happened I was again without a source of diapers.  I was probably 14 at the time.  I can recall a few times when I had money and a way to get to a store buying my own Goodnites, making diapers a few times at home with trash bags, paper towels, real towels, maxi pads, etc.  I actually ordered some diapers online at one point using one of my parents credit cards, which they obviously weren’t a fan of.

Calidiaperboy91

27 Southern California | August 23, 2018 

As a teen I use to steal good nights from stores and wear them under my clothes. Once I was 18 I would buy a pack of goodnights and hide them in my room since I had roommates and didn’t want any one to find out. [READ MORE] 

Champ

29 Monterey, CA USA | April 3, 2015 

The first time I got my hands on a diaper was when I noticed one of my sister's old dolls had one on.  I think it was an old style pampers, with crinkly plastic backing and everything and it fit perfectly!  I was only 4 at the time.  Then I bought a pack of diapers in secret when I was in 6th grade during a trip with my parents.  I wore one or two (they also fit) but then my mom found one in the trash and I panicked and threw the rest away.  A few times I took em from my school's pre-school in middle school.  I knew it was wrong but it felt so good to wear and cum in my diapers.  After that I didn't ever touch a diaper again until I was in college.  Actually in high school I'd sometimes try to simulate diapers by wearing a bunch of briefs at once, it made sense at the time... [READ MORE] 

CrinklyConnor

23 Wichita KS USA | February 23, 2019

I would take a diaper/pull-up (just one or two to avoid suspicion) from a friend’s house and wear them. I never went so far as to use them as they were not easy to get then. [READ MORE] 

DBCayden

23 Dallas, TX USA | December 2, 2015 

I remember sneaking pullups or the bigger sizes of baby diapers from family or the daycare that were meant for either my little cousins or my playmates respectively. I feel so guilty about that now in hindsight :P [READ MORE] 

KinkyDude93

23 Miami, FL USA | November 9, 2016 

As a child I would wait for my parents to leave the house then went straight for the pull-ups. [READ MORE

Denoteboom13

25 Indianapolis, IN USA | October 26, 2018

I started baysitting at a young age and all of the kids wore Goodnites to bed. I quickly put together a babysitting bag with a first aid kit, some microwave popcorn, and a selection of DVDs to give me something to hide Goodnites in and took one or two at a time. For my birthday that year I traded my mountain bike for a road bike and started getting Goodnites and Depends Fitted Maximum Protection for myself. I already had a car, so once I got my license I found a place nearby that sold Tranquility ATN and thought they were the greatest! It wasn't until college that I ever ordered any diapers online and it wasn't until my senior year that I got to try actual ABDL diapers. [READ MORE] 

Diaperfur

Somewhere In Canada | June 7, 2013

For a while i use to make makeshift diapers out of plasticbags and papertowels to get that nice plasticy feel. Also use cloth towels with safety pins i had around. Later on i would buy small sample packs from drug stores that we would normally not goto to avoid being noticed. [READ MORE] 

Leon, aka DiaperMoxxi

18 Cambridgeshire, England | February 13, 2013

Well other than the one thing I mentioned in the question earlier, another memory which was kind of embarrassing  to remember was when I was at a family friends party when I was around 8 or 9 and went to go use the bathroom. They had a potty and diapers there since they had little ones that needed them then :P. I tried on the diapers but was too scared too use them and after that I used the potty. It felt amazing being back in that position even then but sadly that was near the end of the party so I left. That was my only really last attempt I could've possibly had without raising suspicion which I still am pretty scared of to this day. But now I have a whole load of drynites to tide me over :) [READ MORE] 

Nathan, aka Diapscort

20 Chester UK | June 4, 2012 

Well I had younger cousins and as the usual story goes I stole their pull ups etc. but I only did that a few times. I also used to take towels and fold them into make shift diapers and pin them on myself. My mum used to get suspicious about where her towels had gone so I had to replace them in the end. As I started to get older and moved out of my small town to university at 18 that’s when I started buying nappies online and dry nights from Tesco. [READ MORE] 

DiaperWhiz

28 Brooklyn NY USA | April 19, 2012

Dinobaby

22 Newmarket on Fergus, County Clare Ireland | February 8, 2012 *1st Q&A Ever*

Living in Ireland there isn't many shops or pharmacys /drugstores or other places that sell adult diapers or incontinence pads. And since I live in a small town and im rather shy id never resort to buying baby diapers. So every so often id go down to my grandfathers house and sneak into my uncles bedroom and take a few of his diapers never more than 5 at most as I didn't want to risk being caught. I found out where he got them from and it was through the Irish Health Board and often thought about how I could get them but never had the guts to go and ring about trying to get them. Id bring the diapers back to my house which is 2minutes away and hide them till later. [READ MORE] 

Dprderic

30 Dallas TX USA | August 25, 2012

Before I had a job, diapers were very hard to come by. Like many others, I wore multiple pairs of underwear, tried to (unsuccessfully, I might add) tie towels around me like a diaper, and sometimes stuffed tons of toilet paper in my underwear for extra padding. I'm surprised my mother never mentioned that we were going through so much toilet paper. 

Once I finally got a job and was making money, I bought my first package of diapers: a package of the largest Huggies I could find, I think. Unfortunately, they didn't fit, but it was one of the most exciting moments in my life. After that, I used Goodnites until I finally discovered adult diapers. [READ MORE] 

DprSteve92

23 Myrtle Beach, SC USA | January 9, 2016 

I actually had a very close friend who lived right across the street from me until I moved away at age 11 who's sister had to wear Goodnites all the time cause she was disabled (I know this may sound wrong but I was like 7). So me and my friend would take them and wear them for fun. This continued until he kinda just grew out of it and I didn’t. I would painstakingly ride my bike to the store to get a pack of Goodnites many times growing up until iIstarted driving then I would go to the local medical supply store and buy real Mollicares. [READ MORE] 

Dan aka Growing-boysXL

22 Leesburg, Virginia USA | May 28, 2017 

Well, I was in diapers when I was 5. Youngest child perks! But that ended up factoring in a lot to my childhood, as well as weirdly ending up in diapers on numerous occasions when I was a kid… but I’ll share those later.  I always sort of knew I was interested in it. I used to draw pictures of boys my age peeing their pants, in desperate “potty dance” poses, or in diapers soaked in urine from when I was around 7. The idea of diapers being used past the age of being a baby was always fascinating to me, and it followed me all throughout my childhood until I discovered the term “AB/DL” in my early teens. [READ MORE] 

Heisenberg DL

27 New York, NY USA | May 12, 2017 

My dad had passed by the time i had to start wearing but my mom… she honestly didn't really find out until about a year ago 5 or so years after i started wearing, even tho i needed it to help me live a normal life id been able to hide it until then and at that point i really just figured who cares if she finds out so she did from her own perspective one day when my shirt came up or something and she asked i said yes and that was that end of storey lucky me! With the type of person my mom is id really expected some objections but either she had already known or was just ok with it. [READ MORE] 

Iker Nash

29 Mexico City Mexico | September 7, 2020

Luckily my little sister was using diapers at that time so I used to take 1 or 2 per week and use them under my undies, then I had to move out to study in another city strangely it was harder for me to use when I was going to college than when I was living with my family.

ImaginationOfABoy aka Baby Xander

20 Traveling the USA | December 26, 2015

The first time I ever satisfied my diaper crave, I was three years old, left alone at my babysitters house after preschool. She had this horrible habit of telling me to take a nap under a crib while she would watch tv (sleep) in her room. Being three and not designed to sit still, I wandered about and found the changing table loaded with diapers. Out of pure instinct, I grabbed an armful of em, buried my face in, and took the sniff that would forever change my life. I was instantly hooked like an addict. 

So what did I do? I filled my backpack with em and took them home with me when my mom picked me up. Ever since, from elementary school friend's younger siblings during sleepovers to 20 bucks from my moms purse and a trip to Walgreens, I was fiending religiously. I know it sounds really intense, because it was, but I'll explain myself a little later. 

Inky Wonky

58 Salem Oregon USA | May 4, 2012

I made makeshift cloth diapers from old sheets, pillowcases, old towels.  Used safety pins to pin them on and occasionally wrap some sort of plastic around them.  I tried plastic shower caps for awhile, then found that Gerber Vinyl Pants – Toddler I could fit into bought at the grocery store down the street and used them for a long time, till I couldn't fit into them.

Around 1966, Pampers came out in Drug store in town.  Used to at least slip them into my shorts and walk around with them in my pants. [READ MORE] 

JamesFrost

26 Chicago Illinois USA | July 19, 2018 

I stopped wetting my bed around 14 and my parents stopped buying my diapers. Fortunately, I had just started my first job at Burger King, so I would venture to the local CVS or Rite Aid on my bike either really early in the morning or late at night to buy my own diapers. Sneaking them into my room was always a challenge. [READ MORE] 

JayCub

21 Omaha, Nebraska USA | January 15, 2016 

I've only done it like a few times as a teen to get diapers. Once I had my grandma buy me some and my reason for her to buy them for me was because I said that my class was doing an experiment and that we needed to use them to build a Astronaut. I think now back when I did that it was pretty funny. Another time I bought some and had to hide them in my backpack. I was so scared buying them thinking that the cashier knew my exact plan for them. I also took one pull-up from my little brother when I was visiting and we had a small connection about it, but I doubt he would even remember. I could go on for days about these! [READ MORE] 

Jeffy

22 Austin Texas USA | February 9, 2013

It wasn’t until I moved in with my father and stepmother the summer of 2003 that I lived anywhere close to a place to purchase diapering materials at. Once I was able to hop on a bike and pedal a few blocks down the road to the dollar store where I was able to purchase many different baby items for very cheap, such as pacifier packs, wipes, powder, cheap toys, little decorations, all kinds of stuff “Made In Korea”. I preferred the middle-eastern run jumbled up “Dollar Mart” to any big brand-name business to buy quality diapering stuff, at first, I will admit, due to laziness, but later on to avoid embarrassing run-ins with people I knew. I even shamefully admit that I have resorted to stealing diapers/pull-ups from donation bins at my parents’ church or from grocery stores, however I did eventually get ballsy enough to just run in and pay for them and leave by the time I was in middle school, and felt dumb for being a little ‘fraidy-cat. 

Kita Sparkles

June 5, 2018 

A relative in the house wore adult diapers, and I stole what I could.  Got caught once which was extremely embarrassing ... seems 3 disposable diapers of the late 1980s didn't hide too well under one's mattress. Later, we moved to the suburbs and I was able to go to the store and buy them ...  rode my bike there and back, and would stuff the package in a backpack. Once, I couldn't fit it, so I had to carry the package, and some neighbor kid kept yelling from his porch, "Why do you got diapers??" until his Mom came out and hollered at him.   

That all came about in my teen years.  In my younger years, I just had the desire, but never did much about it.  I had a cloth diaper I found in a dresser drawer that I pinned on a few times, then a crib sheet that I was folding as a diaper and pinning on.  I actually had my first ejaculation into the crib sheet, and was really worried I might have broken something inside because of the strange liquid that came out!! [READ MORE] 

Kyleman93/ DiaperedRebel

26 Saint Louis MO USA | February 1, 2019 

I was a bedwetter until around 4th grade but I continued to fake bedwetting here and there in order to try and get diapers. [READ MORE] 

LBPrince99

19 Atlanta GA USA | December 7, 2018

I would save up my own money and walk/ bike to the nearest store and buy whichever diaper looked enticing to try, but they were too flimsy. I had to get rid of diapers, onesies, and stuffers for the panic of getting caught by my family. [READ MORE] 

Chuck aka LittleBoyC

23 Kansas | December 13, 2014

I did babysit a few times for neighbor kids and, yes, I have taken some of their Pullups. But when I got my own bank card I actually ordered samples from ebay! Very scary since I still lived at home but it was always worth it! [READ MORE] 

LittleBoyJakey

21 Richmond, VA | November 13, 2020

Around 10 years old I started acting on my desires, as much as I hate to admit it I stole some diapers from my brother (they were for his kid) and discovered that I was tiny enough to fit comfortably into a pampers size 7. I kept that up for about a year and then discovered goodnites which I could get free samples of! So of course I did, unfortunately I did not account for the fact that my mother checked the mail, and she had lots of questions! Eventually I started scrounging up money and gift cards and walking about 2.5 miles down the busy main highway through town to the local grocery to buy pampers, pacis and goodnites whenever I could get away with it.

Little Joshy

20 Suburban Philadelphia, PA USA | January 5, 2016 

At one of the daycares I attended the store room with all the supplies/diapers was right next to the bathroom. I would slip in there, grab a pull-up and go put it on in the bathroom. I remember wanting to put on a real diaper but i couldn't figure out how to put it on. Starting when i was about 12 I would go to pharmacies when I was home alone and buy packs of depends with allowance/birthday money, tke them home and hide them under my bed. [READ MORE] 

LittleXan

28 Southeast England | March 7, 2019 

Q&A Series - Question 2 I rediscovered padding or diapers, when I was around 6-7. I had a younger half brother and would 'borrow' his nappies. I never wet them or anything at that age, I would wear them in secret in my room, im pretty sure my parents found them though because they would always dissapear. When I got a little older maybe 11-12 I would take them from wherever I could, friends houses, school nurse, wherever I would see them I would take them. Then I would go to one of the wooded places near where I live and wear them alone. [READ MORE] 

Lorenzo

21 Ohio USA | January 17, 2017

I know one time when I was in middle school I accidentally wet my undies in class. Was super embarrassing and my desk seat was all wet. Was sent to nurses office. They had spare sweatpants for me to wear which they called a spare tire but they didn't have any underwear to give me to wear. So they had me wear a hospital tape diaper. The most humiliating and embarrassing part was they had to put it on for me cause they knew I probably wouldnt know how to put it on and want to make sure it doesn't fall off. They layed me down on the hospital lounge then to make it even more embarrassing they wiped me with baby wipes and I think they put baby powder so I wouldn't sweat from wearing it in school. I got all blushy. I wore it and I didnt throw it away when I got home from school. I kept it and wore it all the time, didn't use it because it was only diaper I had but eventually my mom found in room and threw it away. 

At one of my grandparents house. They used to let me drink out of my favorite bottle. I use to fill it up with orange juice or milk or chocolcate milk which is my favorite to put in my bottle to this day hehe. I drank out of it when I was 12 to 16 but my mom found out and she yelled at them for letting me drink out of it that i was to old for that. They used to argue why not he likes it and its not hurting anybody. My first time getting diapers was when I was 15 or 16. My parents were gone and I rode my bike up to the store. I bought a case of goodnites, was super shy and embarrassed to buy and even carry them to the register. To make it more embarrassing there was a really cute girl at the register to, I literally just embarrassed myself saying, there for my younger brother. She was like ok. Was such a dumb move, cause its like she obviously knows now they are for me cause I made a excuse for buying them when I didnt even need to explain myself for buying them. I rode my bike home with the pack of diapers in the bag. I ran up to my bathroom then quickly undressed then opened them up. Then I slid them on and omg was most amazing thing thats ever happened to me. I was like im wearing a diaper this is amazing. [READ MORE] 

LT

22 Virginia USA | February 6, 2013

When I was six, I asked Santa for diapers for Christmas and believe it or not, my parents obliged by buying me a pack of Pampers size 6. When I was 12, I started buying my own with money orders and ordering the Tranquilty ATN's through NorthShore Care. [READ MORE] 

Mez

26 Anaheim CA USA | January 12, 2016 

As a child, I wore my undies and sometimes plastic shopping bags to pretend I was in a diaper. I would crawl in the bathroom until I wet my “diapee” and then jump in the shower.

As a preteen, I wore multiple pairs of boxer briefs and tightie whities in order to be unable to close my legs and waddle. But using them was hard, and I remember trying to take some off in order to pee.

As a teen, I had a job and I went shopping for training diapers. My first pack was a pack of Goodnights for boys. They fit as well as one would hope and they didn’t last long either. Sometimes I would use only about 3 or so before throwing the rest away so no one could see that I had them. 

When I was poor or didn’t have any, I made diapers from a towel and plastic trash bags. I remember one time I took into the shower to see how much it would swell up. I remember that it was so heavy and then there was a hug flood of water in the tub but I was so amused by it.

I didn’t get to wear better adult diapers till I was in my first year of college at 18. [READ MORE]

Min

33 Colorado Springs CO USA | November 15, 2016

I remember trying to wear my sister's or cousins disposable diapers but of course they didn't fit, a few times I put one on and put my underwear on over it but it still never fit. When I was in my teens I would purchase adult diapers at the drugstores or mostly order them online with my parents credit cards and would lie and tell them it was for computer parts or something similar. [READ MORE] 

NappiedMike

London UK | November 26, 2012

I cheated. I chatted to some guys in Gaydar's nappy chat room and found out where to buy some locally. Initially, I made up a story about my Dad having surgery and needing them as he's a similar build to me. So I went in and bought over the counter. I didn't need my cover-story, and they were completely indifferent about it. Good choice using a mobility store as they sell them all the time. 

These same chatroom guys then recommended a few different brands and a few places to order online, so I tried a few out. Generally, you'll find me in M4s these days. [READ MORE] 

NappyBoyRyan6

UK | August 16, 2014

It was just after my 15th birthday, I had been out of nappies for less than a year. I found a stash that my Mum had yet to throw out. I guess as much as she believed in me, she was hesitant to get rid of everything. I remember searching around in the loft and finding a half opened pack of Pampers Baby-Dry. I took one out of the packet and felt it, I had a feeling I had never felt before. I waited for Mum to go out and then put it on again, and wandered around wearing it. The feeling was intense, I actually had my first ejaculation whilst wearing one. It felt amazing and I have never looked back since. I experimented with drynites as well which being bigger than the Pampers and a little more discreet. I was also issued with these very noisy and bulky NHS nappies, they were plain white, specifically made for older kids and teens but unfortunately she had got rid of these. To be fair, these nappies didn’t do discreet, if you were wearing of one these, everybody around you would know about it. No adult nappies on the market today come close to the noise generated by those!

Oliver

26 Rochester NY USA | July 8, 2018

I ordered Pampers samples off the internet in the early 2000s and even got a small stash (3) of diapers from a hotel vending machine. Later, as a teenager, I grew more bold and would walk to my neighborhood drug store to pickup Depends, hoping I wouldn't run into any friends along the way. [READ MORE] 

OneFitStoner420

28 Providence RI USA | June 10, 2018

Took pull ups from little cousins, purchased first pack of depends at 14. [READ MORE] 

PaddedCrinkles

33 Phoenix AZ USA | April 14, 2019

Not long after and into my early teens, I had a few "reserve" pairs of undies that I would secretly wet when I had some alone time. I also made my fair share of homemade diapers around the same time, usually using plastic wrap and paper towels. I really didn't have any access to actual diapers without any younger siblings or extend family members.

Padded-DJ

27 New Orleans LA USA | June 3, 2018

My brothers are several years younger than me so luckily I was just able to take theirs until I was 13 or 14.  I had a couple years where I had no way to obtain diapers, but literally one of the first things I did once I got my driver’s license was go to the drug store and buy some. I had two jobs through high school so it was not too difficult to get them. [READ MORE] 

Pandaku

24 Fort Collins CO USA | March 24, 2016

I took them from church, but mostly it would be from my own money, I started working from a young age, so i had money to go to the store and buy depends. [READ MORE] 

Pup Artemis

27 San Fransisco CA USA | October 16, 2018

I did not sadly. I was raised by my mom and grams and often lived in small houses without a lot of privacy. I fantasized and looked at stuff online now and then but I never really tried anything until I lived on my own around 22ish. I did wet the bed until around 13-14 ish so I wore training pants for a long time but I never quite drew the connection between them. [READ MORE] 

PupKeno

25 New York, NY USA | August 2, 2018

The only thing I can think of was sneaking adult pulls up when I was 16 and doubling or tripling up on them because what can I say I like a thick diaper. [READ MORE] 

Ronikat

18 San Diego, CA USA | August 18, 2012

I was still in diapers at night my entire life and would sneak them during the day whenever i wanted to. [READ MORE] 

Rvrse

23 North Carolina | May 21, 2012

My love for diapers didn’t stem from the fact that I enjoyed wearing them. I liked putting diapers on stuffed animals. My diapered stuff animals were my babies and I was their daddy. I would treat them like a baby. I would change them, feed them, burp them, etc. I definitely had a caretaker role going on. My favorite stuffed animal to diaper was Toby, a dog. He was white, black, and brown with twinkles in his eyes. Around his neck was a white collar with a red pendant that said, “Toby” on it. I loved diapering him and I still have him today. [READ MORE] 

SDKBoi

24 Destin, FL USA | February 3, 2019

The earliest memory I have of this is stealing them from my neighbor because they had younger kids who were 6-7 when I was 12-13. I even went as far as digging a whole in my back yard and burying them in what I thought was a sealed container.it wasn’t 😂. At one point I remember stealing diapers from the local grocery store because they didn’t have very good surveillance. I would take a couple and stuff them between my shirt and waistband. As a kid this was perhaps the worst thing I ever did. [READ MORE]   

Shadow

28 Austin TX USA | February 9, 2019

I was home a lot a lot as a kid. My family worked a ton, and I had a lot of the house to myself outside of school. Besides having very few friends, I spent a lot of time at home alone. So, I was sneaky and went to the store and bought some Goodnites and hid them in my room. [READ MORE] 

StrengthOfTurningTides

22 Shropshire UK | June 19, 2018

During the summer holidays, when all my family was at work and I was home alone, I'd surf the internet on my phone and that's when I realised that I wasn't alone on this planet! 

From the age of around 8 to 15 I seemed to have no access to anything related to wearing nappies, only in my mind. So when I discovered others' interest in ABDL, I was elated and further intrigued as to what there was to discover about it.

I took the plunge one day and caught the bus to my nearest superstore which was miles away and incredibly nerve-racking, not just because I was about to buy my first set of nappies in around 13 years but because I'd never caught a bus to an unknown place on my own before.

I purchased a pack of Drynites (Goodnites for my fellow American ABDLs) and a pack of Pampers size 6 (because I could fit in those back then!) along with all the essentials like baby oil/powder/wipes. I took them home, and enjoyed it, and kept on enjoying it to this day! 

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TeddyNhislittle

22 Chicago IL USA | February 9, 2019

I was a bedwetter as a kid on and off then middle school came around and made things worse. Eventually I bough myself diapers/ goodnites to try to wake up with a dry bed. [READ MORE] 

ToddlerBoiCharlie

19 Charlotte, NC USA | October 31, 2012

Well as a kid I was frightened to death of buying diapers and that fear really still existed until I was about 16 or 17 years old. Well from the ages of 12-14, I never really got my hands on a real diaper. At that time I had just made the transition from white briefs to boxer briefs so I had all my old "little kid" underwear that I didn't want to wear to school, because all the boys were boxers or boxer-briefs. So I would at night, steal a roll of paper towels from the kitchen and put on a pair of the briefs. I would line the entire thing with a think liner of paper towels to simulate a diaper. In the end it was wasteful and not very satisfying but got me through that part of growing up as a ABDL. [READ MORE] 

Welshdiaper

24 Wales UK | May 8, 2015

For a long time, I would just wear pads, kept in the bathroom, attaching them to the front of my underwear. As I got older, I got braver. At 17, I sold an old mobile phone for £15, and bought some tena pants, and although I may have loved them at the time, tape up diapers are the way to go for me. [READ MORE] 

Windman

40s South Africa | September 30, 2012  

Ha Ha, during my teenage years I was too busy making sure I was crapped on by peers to even think about diapering a boy. I never wrote it down, thought it or let my mind even go there.  The ironic thing was that I was infamous for diapering the boys who came over for my sleep over all those years before. One day in a class the teacher handed us dictionaries and said “Look up the word infamous.”    It was a big laugh. We all joked about famous for the wrong reasons. Little did I know that the joke was on me. [READ MORE] 

Zac

21 New Jersey USA | April 30, 2012

Well when I was little my older brother was a bedwetter, so on random sneaky occasions I would take one and wear it for the day. Couldn't do it often though, because I didn't want to get caught. Later when I could drive and had my own car at 17, I would go buy my own. [READ MORE] 

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